WHAT is wrong with me?

This is a question I have been asking myself again lately, and today for sure..ever since I have booked our hotel for Chicago I have changed it 3 times to be exact..I can not make up my mind. I have talked to Abby and she has laughed at me..and I told her I am getting to be like my mother...she had to practically go in the room and lay on the bed before she would ok a stay there...I used to think what is the big deal..now I am the same way..I started reading reviews, that was my first mistake..because usually those who write those complain about everything anyway..

So this morning I had 3 different hotels booked so that I could use a few days to make up my mind..now how foolish is that???

I think that I have made up my mind now and did cancel one but I still have 2..just in case...I want to change I have till Tuesday to decide..I will read some more reviews and consider the driving distance...and really we aren't even going to be there that much..just to sleep..but still I want a nice quiet, clean smelling room that hasn't had pets or whatever in it..I know it won't be home, and really why am I so picky??? It'll be alright..I know for sure...once I have made my decision...I will go on and not change it...:) maybe???

Decisions and Choices

Do you ever count in a day how many decisions and choices that we have to make?
I just started to think about that this morning. Each day we get up that is the first choice we make..to get out of bed..then what to wear..what to have for breakfast...what to make for lunch...should we go for a walk..or read a book..call a friend...sit at the computer for awhile...did we do our devotions first thing or put them off to do something else...clean out the fridge that we have been putting off..
At work, there is a list of things that need to be done..which do I do first, I have to make a choice which is more important..I use to have a guy working for me that would start one thing before it got even half finished he was off to doing the next and day after day he did this..it always made him look very busy but nothing ever got completed...I walk by some houses, people start working on their lawns and flowers, gun ho...so excited to get things looking good, but some half way through just seem to quit...then by the end of summer, weeds have taken over, flowers need to be watered and everything just looks very unkept...we get tired of doing and keeping things up and make our choice to give up, because it overwhelms us or other things catch our interest..

Is that what it is like with our Christian walk with God too, we start out on fire..that's all we want to talk about, share with others, so much joy fills our hearts..can't wait to go to church to hear about Jesus, sing about Jesus...then what happens..somehow we can lose interest..lose our joy, and the cares of this world take over again...but we MUST seek Him and stay close to Him so the weeds of this world do not over take us and we become again the faded dead flowers that we once were..we must bloom be bright and cheerful...so others may see the beauty of being a child of the Kings...so let's keep watered and weeded and pruned by being in His word daily and in pray...

More then I hoped for

I really don't know why I titled this blog today "More then I hoped for" other then right now I feel very peaceful....even with all the turmoil that is going on in the world my heart is at peace...real peace...the peace the Bible talks about...I have been at peace within for sometime...I am a struggler usually...wanting to do everything right...want everyone to be happy..but don't we all want that?
I think so...but to have the peace that the Word talks about..is different...

Our Pastor had such a great sermon today...he could have just preached the words of the last 10 minutes and it could not have been better...

He spoke about what it really meant to be a Christian....to be in Christ and not just believe about Him....that our lives should be transformed if we are living in Him....we should not be living as the world lives we should be different..
He used a parable about marriage...his wife was from Oregon...and he said had they gotten married and she would have become Mrs. Quillan but stayed in Oregon and kept living the same life and in the same house and the same job and not moved here with him and became his wife...there would be no difference whether they were married or not..just like us if we say we are Christian and live as everyone else in the world lives what is the difference???

I recently read this saying..don't know if it has anything to do with this post or not..but to me seems so true...how many of us are really REAL are we whom others vision us as...or are we fake?

It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for something you're not.

4 in 5

We have had four deaths in our immediate family in 5 mo...
An uncle and sister-in-law both died Dec 5.
Another uncle died 2 weeks ago..
His brother that was 94 died last night.
We will miss them all...

Slimmer and Slimmer

No not me, as much as I wish it were, but what I am talking about is at work..
I am down to 3 employees and 2 part timers...just not to long ago there were 11 of us here full time...Production cut in half...hours staying the same..
God has been so good to me..I haven't had to lay off and day after day He just takes care of every little detail..to say that as a believer we may want to think some of our problems seem mighty little next to everything going on in the world.. and they are, but His word says he cares even for the fallen sparrow and how much more are we....to Him..
Kali one of my girls is leaving for Jamaica next week to get married she will be gone a week and a couple of days...we all have our certain jobs that we do and one of the girls just makes specials which are just the extras that they put on a mower like a hydraulic deck lift, snow blower or whatever. We usually send 75 to 100 out a week, I got a call yesterday from the main plant saying that 2 of these they had a overstock out there that somehow was overlooked????? So probably enough to last them a month or so....I see this as God taking care of me again...short handed for awhile frees up another here to step in and do something else...problem solved...not by me but one mightier than me...again Thank You Lord...

He has Risen

Purple robe my savior wore,
Oh what shame for me He bore...

He has risen, He has risen indeed...
He came and died to set me free!!

Thank you Father for sending your Son
Now it is finished and victory is won...

On the Road again

There is an old country and western song by Willie Nelson..my very favorite country singer...called ON THE ROAD AGAIN....

That is me...we are just getting things taken care of with Uncle Melvin and now my sister fell and broke her hip...she is in Hutchinson hospital, surgery last night..everything went really well she just will be laid up for awhile...and her hubby is laid up too, with 3 broken bones in his heel...poor sis....

Now just a little bit ago I got a call from Everett's aunt that his Uncle Allen in Wichita that is 94 has a broken hip and is in the hospital again...WHAT?????

We have a great big old trailer hitched to our pick-up as I write getting ready to haul all of Uncle Melvin's furniture to Wichita..pray that we have a safe trip...Everett is driving...

To all my children and grandchildren...you all stay well and safe you hear....I got the older ones to look after right now...Leviticus 19:32 "Rise in the presence of the aged, show respect for the elderly and revere your God. I am the Lord.
I am almost there...kiddos..

Life

Just 3 short weeks ago we moved Everett's uncle Melvin into his brand new assistant living quarters here at our local care home. We hung pictures, mirrors, beautiful cabinet in the bathroom, he got a new bed, dresser, and chair..everything put away and we anxiously awaited for his recovery for him to see it..if you remember he got sick and went to the hospital the day we moved him into his brand spankin new apartment...Monday this week was his funeral...last night Everett and I went and packed everything up, took everything off the walls that hung there for 3 weeks w/o Uncle Melvin ever seeing what it looked like...it made me really sad....made me ponder....made me want to live everyday like it might be my last...but each day we can get so caught up in the routine things of the day..we forget..we go on...we always think oh there is always tomorrow, if we don't call those, visit those, or tell those we love, that we love them...then one day it's all over...
Uncle Melvin's daughter got up and talked about 20 minutes about her dad and what his life meant to her and what kind of man he really was...yes everyone has faults, sins to be forgiven, lots of times we make the wrong choice, but all the same the choices that each of us are given, and it's what we do with those choices that eventually will determine what others will say about us when our time here is up,and where we will spend all eternity...the choice is ours...no one elses just ours..
Uncle Melvin made his choice and he chose Jesus..he told us that the night before he died...
This being Easter week..let's reflect on what Jesus did for us..and what that means for us that have received Him as savior
John 14:6 I am the way the truth and the light NO ONE comes to the Father except through me...

I Peter 5:7

Cast all your anxiety on Him
Because he cares for you

Quiet tension is not trust
It is simply compressed anxiety

I wonder why I'm tired...

First before I get started on the story about wondering why I am tired..here is how I feel right now..
I am drinking from the saucer because my cup has overflowed...
God is so good I just can not praise him and thank him enough for what He is doing in my life...for showing me so many things..and I want to thank Him!

Tonight we went to a classic country and gospel concert in Salina thanks to our oldest son Tal for giving us the tickets...I can not express how I was blest and how awesome our God is..there was a gospel singer there I had never heard of before. His name is Jamie Coulter..he is literally 3 feet tall and cannot walk and came on stage sitting on a skate board singing "I saw the Light" When he got done singing the first words out of his mouth were "If you are thinking about feeling sorry for me don't this is the way MY GOD made me". And the songs this man wrote and sang were such an inspiration...I was so ashamed...how I knick pick at things, like if I was just taller, skinner, prettier, had thicker hair, how we can go on IF ONLY...we had more...a better house, on and on we can go..I am going to be more aware of what I have and not look upon what I don't have and Thank God for it..

Now for being tired, Everett was saying when we got home, have you thought about all we have done this week, since Sunday..
Sunday, went to church, got groceries, went to see Uncle Melvin then to Mac to Tal's for family night..
Monday, Everett rode in the ambulance to Wichita with Uncle Melvin and stayed till I got out of my appointment at 5:30 after I had worked 9 hrs and picked him up went and got a couple of shower gifts..and came home...
Tuesday, Invited out for supper and then had band practice..late night..at one of the guys in our bands parents house..
Wed. Took off early went to see both Uncles that were laid up and spent time with the family..late again
Thurs. Worked, then had Sam's first soccer game, then to the DQ for his 6th birthday and had icecream..
Fri..Had a luncheon bridel shower here at my house for one of my girls at work...then later headed to Salina for the concert..on top of this I did work every day going in at 6am..
NOW I know why I am tired tonight.
So pleasant dreams to you all and may God bless and good night!!

Gone Home

Uncle Melvin sweetly passed from this life today at 5:25 pm into the arms of Jesus.
We will miss you..your kindness and gentleness..I have learned a lot from him..

Who's in Charge??

Things have been happening pretty fast lately it seems.
These days just keep going by at a rather fast pace for me.
Days turn into weeks, weeks into years and years keep mounting up.
Don't get me wrong that's perfectly fine, I would at this point rather
get older than the alternative, and really like this season that I am in except for a few of the aches and pains doable put none the less are there. I am not complaining really just commenting.
Everett and I have been in the presence for quite a while on a regular basis with the really older generation as you that read this blog know.
I have learned a lot from them, more then I think I even realize. Two of them now are about ready to be received into the arms of Jesus. Until last night I have never really told anyone good-bye here as I did him...I have been with my dad and
Everett's mom near the end but neither one of them were aware and able to speak. So last night I experienced something totally different. Even though none of us know the exact hour I do believe as others that these 2 are very close to the end of this life....what a blessing to know to really know where you are going to spend eternity.
Last night when we were with Uncle Melvin his daughter said " Dad what are you thinking"? He replied "I wonder what it will be like over there"? We know for sure that with Jesus it will be beautiful beyond our comprehension!

Everett's note today
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