Sticks and Stones

Sticks and Stones may break our bones but words will never hurt me...is a saying I never could understand where it came from....our bruises and cuts on our outside eventually heal, but the condemning, ugly, hurtful, words aimed toward us whether we have them coming or not hurt. They can be replayed and replayed in our heads and sometimes they can scar us for life.

I remember in High School I had a friend that was not very pretty. Her Mother had told her over and over how ugly she was. I couldn't imagine that, especially that a Mother would tell her that.

I am guilty words can fly out of my mouth when I get angry or someone says something accusing to me faster then the speed of light and the minute they come out I wish I could take them back but we can't. Most of the time we aim them at the ones we love the most. So many times my children and my husband would be at that end. And I am so sorry...so very sorry...so very sorry....

Since I have surrendered my life to Christ this has been a terrific struggle for me. I had a friend tell my a number of years ago that I had an anger problem and I did. I wanted to blame it on feelings of guilt that I carried...of the bad choices I had made it life..of low self esteem...maybe envy of others around me...jealously but I had no one to blame but self...my ugly self, my sinful nature, my flesh..Then one day a light came on and I realized that Jesus died on that cross for my sins...He took all my GUILT..my sick sinful deeds, all my sinful thoughts, my rotten attitude, my ungrateful heart, on and on, to the CROSS..he took it all and died for me..and it is when we die to self...that is when we put others first...their feelings...their needs and not ours...am I there yet totally NO way...but I am on the right path now, knowing that it is only through HIM that I can be anything..and not of myself...to live is to die..daily...this I know..but it can be so hard and I fail so many times...but my hearts desire is to live in His strength not my own because He promises NEVER to leave us or forsake us...and no one is who there are by accident but we all are a part of His great plan. It is a life long battle our weakness, our imperfection..and we won't arrive until that day...but each day should bring us closer as we grow in the Lord.

No one will love me more then Jesus did when He died on that cross....

Everett leaves me a note everyday on the blackboard in the kitchen and today's note is what inspired this blog this morning it read

Have you ever looked for yourself and if you did what did you find?