Old School..???

Just some thoughts that I am having this evening...am I as old school as I sometimes think that I am or am I not..
1. I Never thought that I would have a computer...
2. I Never thought that I would have a cell phone on me ALL the time...
3. I Never thought that I would be the main bread winner in our family...
4. I Never thought when I got older (which I am now) that certain things would matter anymore...

Tonight I was having a conversation with my oldest son...it can be very interesting sometimes I was kidding him about his new BlackBerry phone, that he was right up there with Mr. President now, he said (kidding) he never thought that I would have a blog..be on facebook..have internet...etc...got me to thinking...how much a part of this world have I really become...what does the term "worldly"
mean...when I was growing up as a little Holderman girl the term "worldly was used all the time...and I do mean all the time. Anytime we would see someone that wasn't from "our church" they were worldly people..I used to think that women with curled hair down were very worldly, men that didn't have beards...drove cars with white wall tires...(showing my age, but very proud of it)those things were worldly...TV was worldly...your toes showing in your shoes was very worldly..blouses without sleeves...worldly again..camaras..on and on I could go...but my point is what does it really mean to be in the world but not of the world...what was Jesus saying to us and how do we know when we are flirting with the world..doing just as they are but saying we are not of them...Where do we go from here, how far out do we step..just far enough to look over the edge to see what is there, but not really stepping foot on the other side, who is to say we haven't already...who is watching..I know one who has His eye on me and I don't want to fall....we need to be prayerful and very discerning...For we as believers are called to be the salt and the light of this world..

I WAS SICK

I was sick and very sick this week-end...unlike my very lovable spouse that had a hard time admitting his illness I did not...I spent from Friday night until Monday morning in bed...sick...it could have all started on Friday morning when my youngest son called and said " Sarah is sick and could you possible come and help out with the kiddos I need to go to work?" I said sure as soon as we come back from a funeral we were going to we would be there to watch the kiddos so Sarah could get better, but low and behold before we even got there Chad was sick too...OH NO...IT CAN'T BE..here we are in the very midst of it all!!

Well guess who got it..me the very one that can admit she is sick, but I am not blaming Chad or Sarah, really I think it came on to quick...and I think that Jack gave it to me on Thursday when I went to the Dr with them...So Jack...no really I just got it...it just happened and Everett nursed me back to health...I got a lot of sleep and am very thankful I was home and in my own bed and it was the week-end and I am on the way back to health.... and I also lost 4 lbs.....
I still love you guys and the rest of my family I love you too....

"I'm Not Sick"

When we got home from Dallas on Sunday Everett barely got the stuff out of the car and he was laying on the couch...(this is a man that never stops for anything).
I said "are you sick" he said "no why would you think that?" I said "because you never lay on the couch in the middle of the day, and he said "the trip must have wore me out I have no energy.)
We had been invited out to watch the Super bowl, I asked him if he wanted to go...he said no he was to tired..to make a long story short we are in the 3rd day and finally he said maybe I do have a bug of some sort...why to men have such a hard time admitting when they don't feel good? Maybe that is wrong with me..when I don't feel good I whine and whine...I want someone to feel sorry for me...him he just says I must be wore out from the trip....next time I will go that route too, maybe it will make me not feel so bad...Honey I'm ready for you to be rested!!!

Thankful

We just got back from a week-end in Dallas. We went to my sister-in-law's memorial.
It was a bitter-sweet time. Remembering her life, seeing relatives we haven't seen for awhile, and just hanging out with loved ones laughing, crying and sharing.
Makes me wonder what is life really about. It is very fragile for one thing. It can be very sad, happy, and scary...very unknowing from one day to the next what might happen. WE must all be prepared for the day that we all know is coming.
After being at Joy's memorial I wondered what people would have to say about me...How does God see me...I know that as a born again believer He sees me through Christ, and declares me righteous, because of HIs Son..
I have messed up so many times...but I can't go back, I can only go forward...
So today here is what I am thankful for:
1. What Jesus did at the cross for me..
2. For my wonderful husband
3. For my wonderful Children and grandchildren
4. For my health....
5. For my job...
6. For the special people God has put in my life...
7. THAT I DON'T LIVE IN DALLAS AND HAVE TO FIGHT THAT TRAFFIC EVERYDAY!!!!!
8. And many more blessings that I don't even have room for...

How High should we reach?

Sometimes I sit back and reflect, reflect on where I've been where I'm going and where am I at right now.
There was this story about the Train Station that I read a long time ago.
I really don't remember all of it, but do remember that we are all on a journey.
We all go along life and think that some day we are going to arrive and there we will be. Don't we all kinda look at life that way..always striving to reach, to come to the point...of what???? It is now...We talk about when we get our mortgage paid off, or some when we get our credit cards paid off, or when we get our car paid off, or when our kids are in school, or when they are out, or when we are retired..then..then what...I have now come to realize I have only so many more days here..only so many more days to make a difference..in someones life, or even in mine..I am not writing this to be morbid..it's a fact...when I was down last week, I didn't know what was going on or what might be wrong, but I do know one thing, I was in peace...peace in knowing that what ever happened God was in control..that is what I want to leave my family, my friends is that because of what Jesus did at Calvary, we should not have any fear..that is where I want to be...living life without fear, fear of tomorrow, fear of the past, fear of death, or even fear of life...that I can put all my trust in Him..the only one we should fear, if we don't know Him...

What was it??

Early morning Friday about 2 am. I was awakened with severe burning around my heart.
It hurt really bad...just assuming that I had heart burn (which by the way I have never had before)I got up and took some tums. Did not help. It hurt so bad that I couldn't lay, sit or stand up and could not do anything to be comfortable.
So I got on the Internet and googled home remedies for heart burn..and there found that a heart attack can be mistaken for heart burn...and also read that apple cider vinegar is a home remedy for heart burn, so had some of that, took it and did feel a little better, enough that I finally went to sleep, this was about 4 am. but was awaken again about 5 or so with the same pain that I had earlier...so about 8 I called a friend of mine that has trouble with heart burn and she told me what she took and then Steph told me that someone she knew thought he had heart burn and was really having a heart attack..didn't think that I could be walking around with a heart attack but decided to call the Dr anyway and explain what was happening..so to make a long story short (which by the way I had a much needed hair appointment at the same time I needed to get in and see the Dr. but my dear hairdresser put me down for next week) I went to the Dr and she ordered a bunch of tests for me and stuck me in the hospital for observation for 24 hrs. In that 24 hour period, I had an EKG a X-ray, a Cat Scan and more blood drawn then if I would have been to the blood mobile.
Was put on a heart monitor and an IV and oxygen...and I came out with a clean bill of health...PRAISE THE LORD....the Dr did not know what was causing the severe pain, but maybe a really bad case of heart burn after all...but the ending to the 24 hour story, brought me much rest and I know that my heart is strong and nothing seems to be wrong. Again I need to thank the Lord for keeping in His care...We just never know do we what might happen. This could have been really bad...but wasn't.

God IS Good

All of us that are Christians know just how good God is..but how many times do we really reflect on how good He really is...taking care of our every little, or big need that we have if we just put our trust in Him and just let it go...it has happened to me time and time again. I am trying at the end of the day, or during the day when I am in need of something and take it to Him in prayer and just wait and watch how He takes care of it I am in AWE!..I don't know why, His word says over and over "Ask and you shall receive"..He has many promises in His Word that He never breaks..because He can't because He is God...

I used to really fret over my job...you can ask anyone that knows me well or been in TLC group with me, when it came to prayer requests you knew what I was going to ask for ....prayer for my job...the girls...me..but a few months ago I gave the whole place to Him and walked away...let Him take care of it...and now looking back I see His hand in it all....each time I made a request to Him it wasn't long and He had taken care of it...this last one I wanted to question, but at last let it rest and the answer came to affirm His solution for this problem that I had...
He had once again taken care of me...Thank you, why would I even begin to doubt...